Tonight I tried recording vocals for one of my new songs. I wasn’t even been able to finish the first verse. I spent literally 45 minutes singing one line over and over again until I couldn’t tell singing from screaming. I’m so frustrated right now. I don’t know why, but I’m not adding any heart to it. It’s a song that I have written, that I have poured my heart into, and yet I can add more emotion singing someone else’s work. This affects me very strongly because this is something that I’m SUPPOSED TO BE GOOD AT, to be confident in, and I’m not right now. So I have nothing to show for it. Damn this sucks.
The only up-side with this is that I recorded (and then deleted) in my house, so thankfully no one heard the awfulness. Another day tomorrow though.